It’s been 6 weeks since my surgery, but the fact of the matter is we’ve been dealing with this much longer. That’s the thing with cancer. It takes appointment after appointment, test after test just to get to diagnosis. That doesn’t account for recovery after surgery or the weeks of radiation and chemo that you potentially have to endure. It gets exhausting. And frustrating. Time is no longer your own.
This week is a great example of that. Monday, I went for my second iron infusion. Today, I saw my surgeon. We were hoping that I would get the go-ahead to start treatment next week, but instead I’m scheduled for bright and early Friday morning to replace a stitch. ONE. LITTLE. STITCH. That is now the reason that we have to delay treatment yet again. It’s okay. You can yell with me. Go outside right now and just let out a giant holler…………It feels good, doesn’t it?
I have to be healed before treatment. If I’m not, I won’t heal during radiation which potentially leads to a whole other host of issues. If radiation wasn’t a factor here, she wouldn’t be concerned.
Delaying treatment does gets her a little nervous. The longer we delay, the more of a chance that the cancer could potentially come back. Even though, the surgery removed all of it, they can’t tell what’s happening in the microscopic level. That’s the point of radiation and chemo. It will take care of the unseen. But the larger gap you have between surgery and treatment, the greater chance that things could change. That doesn’t mean it will.
On the plus side, I am feeling a bit better. I still tire easily. And as much as I want to push through that, I can’t without paying the price.
I’m still limited on what I can do. My doc reiterated today-that I need to slow down. She is constantly repeating, that, “there is no time limit on healing.” Rushing that, will just cause me more issues (case in point, the popped stitch). I do manage to cook dinner a few nights per week and I can load the dishwasher and clean the sink in the bathroom…..little things. But the big stuff all has to wait.
Continue to pray
*no more delays
*complete healing
*patience for all